#Eblue silenz code#

So of course I was influenced by that fact. When he was not at school, he was always where I was, so if I was writing music he was always in that room. He was always in the room when I was writing in those days-for years. I came back to writing very simple chords and music that was possibly something closer to the silence that he, as I understood it, was yearning for. And I suddenly was drawn back to the music I used to like to write before I studied new music, before I was interested in pursuing the contemporary avant-garde music. That has not changed in itself, but when he got sick in '98-which was really quite sudden-all that trying to be different, new, innovative, say something new each time, be experimental and write really harsh, dissonant music, lost completely its appeal almost overnight.

I wanted it to be innovative, I wanted to say something new each time, so I had huge high demands on what I was writing. So I was writing experimental music, music that was perhaps quite harsh, dissonant, not always melodic or harmonious. And apart from my work for theatre, where I was working for someone for a certain purpose, whenever I was writing for concert hall I tried to reinvent the music, reinvent the sound, reinvent the instrument which I was writing for. And I continued writing while they were growing up. I've been writing my whole life, before my children-all three of them-were born. And I would like to bring my music to other people, not just him. That sort of attitude where I just couldn't care less about what my peers would say, what critics would say, I would just say, 'Look, most important is what he would say if he listens to my piece and if it would make him better.' In some kind of way, I wanted my music to serve a medical purpose to him, but that is the wrong way because I am not a therapist, I can only write. It was absolutely a turning point in my writing, absolutely. Because you don't expect it, your life goes in a certain way and this just… for me, life is before and after, before that October '98 and after October '98. I remember all that week, it's just so clear because it was so horrible and so shocking. It seems so long ago-it's almost ten years-but it's so clear in my head. It must be a very confusing and horrible way to live all the time. I feel that it would be wonderful for him to have a moment of respite and nothing in his head, just no sound, just to relax, you know? It's very frightening and very exhausting. So the word silence brings all sorts of associations to do with my son. In his head, he would like silence, because there is so much noise and voices going on, and not only the pure frequencies but also what those voices are saying-they're quite hostile and unpleasant and scary, and so there is fear.

#Eblue silenz code#

Police are known to have a well-developed blue wall of silence.Ī more well-known example of the code of silence is omertà (Italian: omertà, from the Latin: humilitas=humility or modesty), the Mafia code of silence.Natalie Kestecher: What does the word silence mean to you when you're thinking about your son?Įlena Kats-Chernin: It means something he does not have, and something Alex would like to have. The code of silence is usually followed because of threat of force or danger to oneself, or being branded as a traitor or an outcast within the unit or organization, as the experience of police whistleblower Frank Serpico illustrates.

( Learn how and when to remove this template message)Ī code of silence is a condition in effect when a person opts to withhold what is believed to be vital or important information voluntarily or involuntarily. ( June 2020) ( Learn how and when to remove this template message) Please help improve this article if you can. The specific problem is: etymology / historical use needs better structure. This article may require cleanup to meet Wikipedia's quality standards.